July 16, 2006 I guess there's just too many things flooding me and I couldn't take it yesterday. I haven't been able to breathe properly since I woke up. I'm still very tired after a rather long sleep. I woke up about 5times or more thoughout the night. I hate weekends because it's like having someone watch over me. I don't like it when people apologize even though in my point of view, it wasn't their fault at all, or something like that. I guess I will go to sleep hope and my breathing stabilizes and also hope that by the time I wake up my mum will be out so I won't have her saying I insult her cooking by not eating it.
I guess when there's just no motivation, everything I do is just with 1% effort or none at all. Even my patience isn't spared, so are the words I want to keep, that itself is a struggle but I still want to keep it alright. I don't like to go back on my word, even if it's those I set for myself.
And I spend my days wandering around feeling like a lost ghost.